I was asked today, a rather simple question – seemingly. “What do you think of the female body? Do you like it?”

As a woman myself, I was at first stunned. Silenced. My first response – then – was that I don’t particularly like it. I do enjoy forms and structure, but the female body as a whole? No, the answer was no. I do prefer natural shapes and beauty more. That was my reply.

But is this truly my opinion?

I started doubting it immediately, and I am left pondering upon it – for an honest question deserves an honest answer. My reasonings then, are thus far, as follows..

I like natural forms, structures and beauty – but is the female body just that? Is it as much natural beauty as a flower or a flowing river?

In our society of 2010 that is a valid question indeed. As the number of women spending their savings, suffers in pain and solitude – just so that  their physical look can be transformed into a certain category of beauty – an unnatural beauty. This disgusts me.

And the hords of men that only has the capacity to see the women as form – as only form, lacking any connection with mind and spirit. This disgusts me too.

What comes first, the stupidity of women or the ignorance of men, is less of interest – to me. What do bother me – in fact – is that this whole carneval of human carnal desires has managed to creep under my skin and affected my own reasoning.

The question was: ” What do you think of the female body?” And my reply is, this time: “It is as all natural wonders, beautiful in its origin, in its essence. The form and proportions are mathematically accurate and serves its function to be a mother quite well. Yes, I do like the female body. And if I may add.. I sincerely hope that more women would embrace their own bodies and own beauty – on the inside and outside. By doing this women can release the natural power that lies within. They won’t have to be ashamed of their body any more. They won’t have to hide their sense of ugliness or sense of beauty. By embracing the essence – their essence – by embracing this, which is life, they will regain themselves. Pure and sincere – this is what we should expect from all women, as true ambassadors of mother nature.”

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I’m dwelling in the sphere of light. I’m dwelling in the sphere of consciousness. Where no one belong, but me. Where everyone belong, including me.

A sense of senselessness. A touch of grace. Silence – in body, mind and soul.

Empowering the being – in living the now, I am exploring creation in all its aspects. As lightness comes to me and is allowed its space, the world suddenly seems so far away.

I realize, yet again, that I am the world – and the world is within me.  As light. As consciousness. As it all.

The senses comes to peace. The dreamlike state evokes action. The power is released.

Finally…

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Another day, another opportunity. To start my life fresh. To welcome simplicity back.

Creations of nature, creations of the universe. How do they all keep in control – keep in touch with what is me, and my life. It is indeed a mystery. Not only to me, but to those around. I am amazed – and amused. It always knows what is best for me, and it always gives me the opportunities to make the challenges easier..

I do not always listen..

I often prefer to do it the hard way. I have this illusion that this is the way I am learning the most in this life.. Yes – it is an illusion, or delusion – if you will. It always throws me back at the “listen to your instincts, and act NOW”-philosophy. Which I again, and yet again do implement into my daily life.

I choose to see it as a form of cleansing. A detox-cure called Tabula Rasa. A blank slate – indicating the state of my mind as if no sensation has been impressed yet.

It’s like being born again. Like new year. Like feeling free.

I will cherish this new sensation, and guard it and its developments well. As far as I see it, there is only one way to go. Up. Up. Up.

Slowly, and then suddenly – I will rise and shine again!

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I recently did the mistake of not trusting my best friend. A friend I value and respect more than any other person. A friend who deserve only the best. For she has always been there for me, and I wish I will always have the chance to be there for her.

I didn’t trust that she could solve her own problems.

I was, and still am, deeply hurt that I didn’t support her when she most needed it. Not that this unfortunate situation lasted for a long time, cause it didn’t. It is more the fact that I wasn’t able to follow my own spoken words, my own values of action in this matter.

I tried to help her when she didn’t need my help. I failed to see her attempt of action as fruitful ones. I failed to see that what she was doing was her way of solving the problems.

She didn’t wish to do it my way.

Because I care so much for her, I often end up wanting to create solutions for her difficult life situations. How do I allow this to happen? How can I avoid it and become more conscious about its manifestations?

I’m glad I have been forced to question my own actions through this incident. Forced to rethink my situation and motives. This helps me realize that I need to let go of the constant search to help people by giving them solutions, because the only own who can truly do that are themselves. We can guide them in the right direction and follow them through, and that is our task. Our only one.

What a reminder it was for me to experience this. As you preach you must act – indeed it is so.

And I forgot that, for a second. Hopefully I will remember it for the future to come. Remember that in order to truly valuate my friends, I have to let go of my ego. My ego that tells me that “I need to help her, I need to solve her problems”.

I will change this thought process into something like: ” She is strong, she can handle this. I trust her and her own abilities to solve the problem. I will be here for guidenace and support whenever she asks for it or otherwise gives the impression that she needs it”.

Something like that.

When these kind of circumstances occur it is often difficult to know whether to interact or to take a few steps back, observe, and when necessary give guiding advice. It is a fine balance between these two options and many times we’ll be lost in deciding if we are to intervene or not.

By asking myself the question how I would feel if my best friend wanted to solve my problems, the answer becomes quite clear.

And as I am true to my self and my own needs, I have to remember to always be true to my friends.

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It is a new day. The scents of spring is slowly manifesting – in nature, and within my own being.

Questions are asked, and questions are answered – about the purpose of it all. Why are we here? What are our tasks?

Silence enhances the thought process, the reasoning; while we slowly learn to see what we already know deep inside.. Life is beautiful if we choose to see it that way – because the beauty lies within ourselves.

We are what we perceive – and so much more. We are challenged to open our eyes and see the multiple dimensions of this world we live in. We are challenged to discover our true selves.

Only then can we open up to unconditional love and an evolution into light.

We need to free ourselves from the optical illusions – one step at a time. And then – and only then – it will be a new day.

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How often are we to question the essence of life? How long should we wait to accept that the deep understandings of life might never come? Or – rather – that most of this understanding might be simplicity itself?

“We create our own reality”. These are the words of Einstein, a knowledgeable and also a wise man. For it is not a question of knowledge to be able to understand the life circle and our true reality, it is in fact more a question of letting go of knowledge.

Travelling back in time, where instincts were treasured and necessary for survival of man – this might be the path to follow if we wish to once again be in peace with mother earth and all natural laws.

By using, or rather misusing, our minds we often end up trading off our reality – our experience of the Now. By default we live in our past memories, as we live in our future plans.

I like to pretend that I am guided by a large, yellow umbrella, in this quest to find – and to truly live – my very own reality. The umbrella functions as much as a shield to keep other people from opposing society, and its non-essential courtesies, on me – as it symbolizes the pure intent, warmth and light of the sun.

Guided by this yellow umbrella, I am being carried away on my true path, supported by the sun and the wind combined.

Who are we to know destiny’s ways? Who are we to know what awaits us in the future?

A wise woman once told me to trust my instinct – to trust my gut feeling, above all. I have grown to learn that this is easier said than done.

For – What do you do when your choices are constantly questioned – Questioned even by the very people you love? When do you fight for your rights in being guided by intuition and when is it cleverer to surrender to the words of people claiming to know better? People claiming to know what you have to do for your own good?

I am stuck with this question tonight. I am torn between people I love. And I refuse to make a different choice.

I have been guided by feelings and thoughtful processes. I have tested my choices carefully, knowing too well that they would be questioned in the future. Questioned by people that claim to care, and others that truly do care.

A confusion has entered my mind. A lump is forming in my chest. I don’t want to let them down.

My friends. My family. My Beloved.

But I will have to make sure to not let my self down in the process. I have to keep following the path I chose to follow – guided by the light of my consciousness.

This is the path of Love.

Our strength lies within ourselves.

Every one of us needs to accept and understand how to utilize these internal powers. If we do that, we don’t need anyone else for support. We will be free for every fickle action that results from insecurity about oneself and ones abilities.

Although I always felt the need to not fit in, in this society of ours – I have nevertheless been influenced by it. I have made choices out of so called ”most reasonable thing to do” way of thinking. With this mindset being present among most people, sometime – somehow – it gets to you.

Out of my respect for older people, I listened to their advice, and thereby betraying myself. As a kid I honestly thought that grown up people were supposed to be wise.

How wrong could I be.

We know ourselves the best. We know what we can do. We know where our passion is. And we know that we are strong enough – if we only dare to show it, and truly believe in it.

Who says that being like this or that other person is so much better than being you? Who says that we need to behave a certain way to get to the same goods?

Believe in yourself is the way.

Each and every one of us is genuine, and we all have special gifts. We need to stop comparing ourselves to others, and get back to finding our true selves.

We need to be the best we can be.

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